More than enough.

Happy New Year!
We had a great night at HMS Berkley with the Watch Night Service Father Rudi officiated. It was a great way to ring in 2009. I was especially blessed that night to get more business for The GreenClean Maid and potential full-time work. The Lord is really providing for me the more I trust Him. Wow! What d'ya know, trusting God actually works:)

I had such a wonderful day today too visiting with a couple from church that I hadn't known much about, but had prayed for me before. It was so encouraging hearing their story of trusting God in the midst of battle, suffering, cancer, and unexpected crisis. The best part for me is realizing how all those times they prayed for me at church, they too were fighting for faith, when I assumed that their lives must be so great and they themselves unfettered by suffering. Don't misunderstand me, I am not rejoicing in others' suffering, rather, in how amazing God's provision is for those who allow Him to provide as He knows is best.

My friend did this, she let God into her pain and vulnerability and fear and He met her with love and strength. From this wellspring she drew to pray for me and so many others.

I sat there rejoicing in my friends' story, but this little pinch inside poked, "does anything go well for Christians? Can we count on anything being prosperous?" It is difficult for me to see godly Christians with repentant hearts encounter such loss, I get afraid realizing more and more that no matter how hard I may try, no matter how much therapy or prayer I go through, I will inevitably continue to screw up, hurt those I love the most and experience unexplainable loss. I start to feel despair in the face of this and that is when I have learned I need to look up and out at Christ.

In answering this little pinch, I tell "her" the truth about God's provision, how we can count on Him making all things new, how He keeps His promise for LIFE and how the one thing that does go well for Christians is the love they share with and receive from God through all the risings and settings of the sun. And how this is really more than enough.


Lord, I believe, help thou, my unbelief.